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Maybe I Missed The Boat

A little over 20 years ago I was in a relationship that wasn't a great one but I settled for it anyway, because I thought perhaps it wouldn't get any better.

"Maybe this is as good as it gets?", I thought to myself.

I loved, surely -- but I wasn't entirely happy. Something was always missing, yet I stuck with it due to fear of being alone and because of a sense of duty and loyalty. Then we had kids -- the most wonderful gifts -- and despite being unhappy and unfulfilled I kept with it.

Now that relationship has been officially over for three years now and I still haven't met anyone that makes my heart skip a beat.

I've been on a grand total of three dates in that time, while she's on her, oh I don't know -- 10th boyfriend? I'm not keeping score, though, and I really don't mind.  It's her life, and her choices.  Good for her.  For me, however, it just amplifies my loneliness a bit.  It's like there is this incessant buzz of a…